Just nuking my character or lewd driven past here. Mostly as reflecting on this place, it is too stressful, but when it comes to posting backgrounds here. They will happen, maybe with the occasional portrait. I nuked it as I found better archives, besides they were the days I colored with color pencil and oil pastels. Embarrassing pieces of art, but they'll either be permanently gone ( 9/10 ) as I do laugh at some of my older works. I would say my best year was 2021, but other places motivate me more. I do enjoy this site, but hey I will probably specialize on backgrounds and the occasional portrait here. I was in two conflicting worlds, but consciously or unconsciously... I am going with backgrounds here. The 2021 era. I am cleaning it due to not reflecting who I am now.

I fucking cringed to some old shit I made in 2019~2021 that I did here. I am not going to be as active here, but that's okay.

Some of my lack of art is due to just being depressed since Sept 2023. Imagine watching all of your co-workers that you've helped from 2018 till the end of the closure of a restaurant. You watched your fellow workers improve their work and same with yourself just being gone, but helped a town and the wide array of people that you've worked with be gone. I miss the passion of seeing a local Sunday being cleared at the end of the day at 3:00PM. Seeing churches get their food, do I believe their crap? No, but the hard work had satisfaction behind it. Books help offset my boredom with a job I've had for a year so far. Imagine working hard for 5 years to go to a job that is much easier, it feels "off". I hope there is.someone here that understands that frustration.